It does hurt a little, feeling like I have to hide an important part of who I am just to be accepted by other people. If I won't be seeing them consistently, I usually just let people have their assumptions, and don't correct them about what pronouns or titles they use to refer to me. Whenever I meet someone new or see someone that I haven't seen in a long time, I spend quite a while questioning whether it would be safer to tell them I'm non-binary or let them assume I'm a woman. None of my male cousins, who were legal adults at the time, were getting the same questions.Īrtist Zephyra Vun writes that these illustrations integrate 'both literal black and white, geometrically symmetrical shapes alongside fluid, irregular lines and patterns' - opposing elements that 'work in tandem to create the flow, just as they do in Min’s journey to redefine womanhood.' (Zephyra Vun) I hadn't even graduated from high school yet and I was getting pressure to have kids. When I was born I was showered with pink everything.īeing smothered in pink has transformed, over the years, into a smothering of comments from certain family members about having kids. I was the first and oldest granddaughter on my mom's side of the family and the first girl after five boys. There were a lot of familial expectations when I was born. Would they still have said everything, and then been surprised when I didn't want to talk to them? Would they have ignored the shock and anger and sadness in my voice? Would they pretend it never happened? 'Smothered in pink' Would that conversation with my aunt and uncle have been different if they knew the real me? I didn't talk to them for a few months after that weekend. I was angry and hurt and decided it was best that they didn't know I was taking their comments personally, and that I shouldn't come out to them for a while. My sibling and I were bringing up every point of reason we could think of to no avail.
I didn't expect to hear the whole "biological advantage" argument and a lot of the other lousy arguments I had seen about transgender athletes online in the weeks and months before. I thought that they were fairly open-minded and would at least acknowledge that it was a big step in sports. I didn't get the reaction I had expected. I mentioned being excited about the several transgender athletes who would be competing. I came out officially on Instagram on Aug. 11, 2021.Įarlier that summer, I was watching the Tokyo Olympics with my aunt and uncle at their house. I had been out to a few people since early 2021. The pandemic-caused break from school and the forced isolation left me with a lot of time to question my gender. The friends I was around gave me a lot of time to question my gender. My connection to my birth gender is complex and is always changing and shifting. The words echo in my mind before etching themselves into my memory, and I sink into the comforting feeling of knowing that there are others that feel the same way I do. "Someone asks me if I am a woman, and I say, 'sometimes,'" they say.
The person in the TikTok video has somehow managed to describe how I feel about being a woman better than I ever could. I'm lying on my bed, eyes glued to the screen, unable to believe what I'm hearing. Winnipeg artist Zephyra Vun created original, flow art based on the themes and ideas within Tresoor's essay. Tresoor wrote this Creator Network essay, in part, to mark International Women's Day 2023. Top Euphoria is a term most often used to describe someone's comfort or even joy when thinking about their preferred configuration, such as transmasculine people feeling top euphoria thinking about lack of breasts and masculine shoulders and arms, or transfeminine feeling top euphoria thinking about the presence of breasts on more feminine build.īottom Euphoria is a term often used to describe one's comfort or even joy when thinking about their genitalia matching their gender identity.This first-person essay is the experience of Min Hecky Tresoor, a non-binary post-high school filmmaking student with the Sisler Create program at Sisler High School in Winnipeg.
It is thus pleasure, and is not directly attached to gender identity. It is possible for nonbinary people to feel gender euphoria too, for much the same reasons as binary transgender people.Įuphoria is actually the opposite to ' Dysphoria', or the absence of pleasure. Gender Euphoria is a psychological condition which consists of comfort or even joy when thinking about one's true Gender identity, often accompanied by a strong desire to change one's sex to better match their identity or to be called the correct gendered language.Įuphoria can be focused upon bodily attributes, treatment from others.
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